Its sort of sad to think that I could lose everything that matters in just one day...I guess thats just what I get for letting almost no one in. Not that its so bad realy, I have been alone for so long the idea of being alone again dosnt seem so bad. Its just that what I would be losing...I lost everything I cared about one, I lost my father and with him I lost my famaly. Not so long ago I lost the last thing that my dad had ever given me...My dog...Now I am going to lose the remenents of that canine. I have two dogs right now both are his offspring. One is a male and the other is his mate they are my childeren...I am scared to actualy have